It does sometimes feel like my guardian angels have gone silent.
When bad things happen like it did to me this week, out of the blue. It makes me wonder if my guardian angels are asleep on the job! I’m not sure if this is a test of faith or just a reminder that at any point other people can crash into me.
Literally or figuratively and this time literally and there was nothing I could do about it.
I feel like I don’t have any control over what happens to me, but then I suppose we really don’t. We can’t control other people and even the mistakes of strangers directly affect our lives.
I have a minor concussion and now more details to sort out. Being in physical pain because of someone else’s carelessness is difficult. I’ve met people I would not have otherwise and it does make me wonder why.
I have the deepest feeling it was because they needed to meet me and not the other way around. Which also feels odd and frustrating.
So just because someone else needs to learn a lesson or needs to meet me why do I have to be in physical pain for that to happen?
I suppose it could be worse, I could have gotten killed by someone else’s carelessness. Then it makes me feel like I should be lucky it wasn’t worse and that’s frustrating too. It doesn’t take away from the fact that it still is awful.
I got the same Oracle card “illumination” twice two days before the incident happened.
This definition speaks to me: “Also called illuminance, intensity of illumination. Optics. theintensity of light falling at a given place on a lighted surface; theluminous flux incident per unit area, expressed in lumens per unit ofarea.”
Some part of my life had to be ‘lit up’ so I suppose I will find out later and hope for the best. I will continue to have faith that even things totally out of my control will be resolved for the best somehow.